I'm posting because i have made significant progress and I am so proud to have accomplished that.

I really need to keep with it and it puts a damper on the work outs when it rains because I cannot run my daily 5 miles

I need to keep the main goal in mind of just going back to school looking killer and keeping it so.

To do this, I need to more strictly follow my specific diet, and when i have a craving, I need to just think, yes, this will be great at the moment that I eat the item, but is it worth looking fat?

The answer is almost always no .

LETS GO !

So I guess I really only post when I am bad and Ive been so bad lately.

I really need to stay focus and think about the main goal. I want to be that girl that people think is beautiful because I think that way.  I want to be healthy beautiful, which will make me happier and more confident as a person.

I want this so bad and I know how to do it, I just can't waiver from it.

Thinking about the girls at fsu makes me motivated, so heres an awesome pic of the Wescott Fountain.

Well crap. 

Today was a terrible diet day honestly and this is why I am making a new post after all of this time.

I have been making tremendous progress and can notice the difference in my body already and its been couple of weeks.

Today I did not work out and I also had a chai and a mocha and a bagel and AH !!! Its honestly making me so angry.  

I cannot CANNOT have another day like this, I feel shitty and fat.  I need to continue the cardio and working out and honestly I really want to look at the gym so I have no excuse not to go work out.  

I can do this.  

This is the motivation.

Second Day Later..

Ok well now I am blonde again!!

Today was quite busy, I did a lot of spending money but nothing in terms of exercise.  But after I get back from going to see some friends, I am going to make sure I do ab work outs, arms and legs (mainly squats)

I did go into Whole Foods for the first time today, and I'm ECSTATIC! I really do not know why I haven't gone in there before but I got some strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, detox tea, and healthy cereal (but I really wanted to purchase the whole store).

I am going to try out my new blender that I got with some protein and berries tomorrow morning ! Cant wait!

Second Day

Second day, still super motivated, but because we have a very scarce amount of food here I did eat a muffin already.  I am having tea right now with no creamer though.

Today I want to go to Whole Foods and explore the new world of healthy food there, and also go shopping because there is nothing better right? But I also MUST go for a run for at least 30 minutes and do some more abs, arms and legs !!

Today is going to be a great day if I make it so!

First Day Continued

It has only been a couple of hours since I posted my first "blog" post ever. I already ran 30 minutes today outside, did 75 squats, and did a 10 minute lower abdominal work out.  I even ate pretty well for dinner with vegetables and some steak.  One thing that is kind of difficult is that there isn't a Golds gym in jersey, so I don't have a gym to go to.  But I know this is still no excuse for not working out because the internet is a great tool for looking up new workouts with new instructors.

When I go down the shore for the summer and start working, I really want to work out on the beach a lot.  Running on the beach will cause more resistance than if i just ran on the street because of the lack of traction from the sand.  The beach is also so pleasant to be on.  But another aspect of working out on the beach will be having confidence in myself and my body because there will be a lot of viewers, some with bangin bods.  Right now, I honestly don't like to even look in the mirror at my body cause it is just not up to par in my eyes.  

These are some of my main goals:

Toned abdominals

Toned arms

Toned legs

Toned back

TONED BODY

I do not even want any junk food in the house because the temptation sucks, which is why sometimes I wished I lived alone.  I have never been to whole foods because before this year, I really never bought anything from a super market period.  None of my family cares too much about health.  Not that any of them are fat.  My dad used to be a pretty intense athlete, but doesn't work out anymore due to work and health problems caused by primarily his joints.  My mom has never worked out until this year and never played a sport in her life.  Still, even now she doesn't really work out.  And my sister? yeah no.  

Im kind of alone in the health kick, which sucks, but thats just how life is sometimes.  I hope my friends can be somewhat dedicated with me this summer.  

I am really babbling now, but isn't that the purpose of a blog? It feels pretty cool to have a journal because I was never one of those people to have one, but it is a nice outlet.

ANYWAY.... some inspiration of the type of body I want...

What I would, and am going to do, for a body like THAT. 

Day 1: Realization

For all of my life, I have played sports.  Whether it was defending my team in soccer, or playing middy for lacrosse, I was constantly in season, training, and practicing.  And growing up, I never really had to worry about my weight because I was always the "thin" girl, even though I sometimes couldn't see it.  Once college hit, it felt awesome to not have any responsibly to a team for once.  No responsibility for getting in shape for the team.  No stress coming from my bitch of a coach.  No guilt of making a wrong pass or letting someone go to goal.  This "care-free" ness, along with the dorm style of living, party life of college, and the excess stress from the loads of studying packed on weight like I would have never guessed.  I went into college weighing around 127 pounds, which I thought was a lot at the time.  I am 5'7'', so in reality, it was a great weight.  The worst point of my health was when the first semester was over.  I weighed over 150 pounds.  Yeah... what the hell right?  I thought they called it the freshman 15 not the freshman 23..

After a good winter break, and a much needed change of my impossible pre-med major, I realized that I needed to start getting more serious about my health because I was never the fat girl before and I never intend to be.  Health has been such a big part of my life and I truly do hold it heavily in my life.   So I joined a separate gym outside of school, and even started doing a work out program/ bootcamp with some Sig Eps at Fsu that train sorority girls.  That really helped. But by the end, I chickened out and stopped going.  I also signed up for two personal training sessions a month at Golds, but that doesn't do much if you aren't doing the rest yourself.  I wavered off and on with physical fitness the second semester and even though I was a much happier person, summer break has arrived, and I really haven't done much besides sit on my ass all day, falling in and out of sleep, and watching the oh so addicting One Tree Hill.

I am all for having some lazy days, but my personal kind of motto is to get out there and live life.  I know time is limited and I want to have the best experience possible, which is why I have started this blog to myself because from now on, I want to be healthy.  This includes eating well, staying hydrated, exercising daily, and just enjoying life and the summer.  I thought that this blog would help me stay accountable for my actions.  I want to look like what I once did, only healthier.  I want to do it for myself mainly, but also to impress my friends and boys, duh.   I am an open person and I will say what I feel.  I do want my perfect man and if that means looking sexy, which will also make me happy, and also studying hard and being healthy, then fuck yeah am I for it.

Right now, I weigh 153 pounds.  When I go back to FSU, I would love to be around 130.   And yes, I will be working down the shore in the worst possible place for a person trying to loose weight, a coffee and bagel shop, but I really want to do this.  It is the best thing for me and my future.

So Bring it On..